dreampoet's Blog

I'm trapped in the sadness
This hell won't release
It floods me with darkness
It doesn't bring me peace.

I try with all I have
To feel that I belong
Worthy of this time
Of loves gentle song.

This enigma escapes me
This that I've never known
A heart that beats with love
From actions that are shown.

I try to feel wanted
But at times its hard to see
For tears block the view
From the sadness that consumes me.

A heart that beats each day
Craving a gentle touch
Of loves sweet passion
That my soul hungers for so much.

My smile to the world
Is only a mask
That covers the deeper pain
The more daunting task.

So I breathe in deeply
Trying to feel I'm here
Smiling through the pain
Of holding back a tear.


DP

I look at myself
I don't like it at all
Looking into the mirror
All I see is small.

Born premature
God only knows why
I was not made normal
Like most other guys.

I feel so left out
As hard as I try
I don't feel desirable
So in the dark I cry.

I want to be larger
To put on the pounds
But my body fights against me
So it only brings me down.

How can I be desirable
If I am so thin?
I try and try to gain
But it happens all over again.

So on through life
A nomad alone
This hatred of my body
For its lack of tone.

Another day has dawned
I look in the mirror and cringe
Then I see myself
And I start on another binge.


DP

Satin sheets on the bed
Ready for some rest
Bodies positioned in loving comfort
Her head upon my chest.

Arms around her keeping her warm 
Her legs wrapped with mine
Manicured fingers tracing my arm
Our bodies lay entwined.

I feel a tender softness on me
Her soft and tender breasts
Laying close skin to skin
This comfort we find the best.

Hearts beating in loving kind
Safe within the night
Thoughts of a passionate love
Fill our minds with delight.

Smiles on our faces now
As we enjoy the muse
Two lovers who have found some heaven
Giving in to a gentle snooze.


DP

His heart beats in silence
No loving soul to hear
Its cry for a deep love
A love that is sincere.

Laying in a bed alone
Gazing at a darkened room
His mind left to wonder
As his lonliness consumes.

He wonders about fate
And thoughts dark and deep
As he closes his eyes softly
Trying to hold back the tears that seep.

Hidden from the world
In this darkened place
He feels the cold tingle
As the tear rolls down his face.

Unable to cry out
He keeps the pain inside
He must not show weakness
His sadness he must hide.

He feels so ashamed
For feeling so weak
Yet he cannot control
The tears rolling down his cheek.

If only he felt good enough
In this world that is so cruel
But alas he must be strong
He must not act a fool.

So he breathes deeply
His pain inside he keeps
Taking one last breathe
Before crying himself to sleep.

DP






 

I enter the yard of many stones
I walk upon sacred ground
I gaze upon the monuments of past
With my heartbeating the only sound.

This place of peace and sacred rest
Of many a life gone past
That rests long forgotten now
With the occasional flowers cast.

It makes me humble in its mass
Of souls who have taken flight
To carry on in another world
Beyond our earthly sight.

I stop to see a little lamb
That brings a tear to my eye
A child who never had the gift of life
Gone shortly after their mothers cry.

As I see a soldiers grave
With a cross to mark a war
Who died to give me the freedom I have
And others like me and more.

I leave with an understanding
As I drive out of its gates
I must live my life for today
For it is decided by fate.


DP

Im longing for a feeling
Where an artifical can't take its place
To not gaze at pixels
But to look into a loving face.

To feel a breathing soul
In my arms once again
To fill me with desire
A moment of amazing zen.

I want to be touched deeply
I want a body to feel
Someone with a heart
Someone that is real.

I need this human connection
Of mind, body and soul
A love that takes hold
And never gives up control.

I cry out in desperation
To find a love so true
To heal me of this misery
Help me start anew.

I must try and carry on
Even though the journey is far
I must find an answer
To heal my hearts many scars.

But alas I have no answer
Just a longing in my heart
That eats at my soul
And is breaking it apart.



DP

I have awaken to the desire
That burns in my heart
To seek out a lover
That needs me from the start.

I no longer can go on
With desires that rage in my soul
That keep me up at night
Trying to take control.

I am on the hunt
For a woman to give me love
Who wants and needs me
Like earth needs rain from above.

I need to feel wanted
Like my life has meaning
To know and feel a desire
That is seperated from dreaming.

I ask GOD to send me
A love to fill my heart
To give me a purpose
To live from the start.



DP

My heart bleeds a thousand rivers
For a love thats sincere and true
To fill me with passion
A love I never knew.

My heart bleeds for closeness
Two souls to love and bind
Loving one another deeply
With no words spoken unkind.

My heart bleeds for a lover
To give me what I need
A womans sensual touch
With a promised creed.

My heart bleeds for a woman
Who loves me with her all
Who makes me fully aware
That it was worth the fall.

My heart bleeds passion.........





DP

I am only a man
With thoughts in my head
Yet it has come the time now
For these thoughts to be shed.

A woman is beautiful
They are a beautiful sight
Made from Gods hands
Devine and pure delight.

Although we are equal
A woman is something more
Beauty that is amazing
A body to adore.

So beautiful in form
In the soft moon lit night
Curves that reflect
A most humble sight.

Skin so smooth as silk
That is a pleasure to touch
Eyes that captivate
That makes me long for them so much.

To hold a womans body
Is a pleasure that can't compare
It makes me feel so in balance
To have her lying there.

With every gentle sigh
And stroke of her hair
It gives me such peace
And privilage to be there.

To make love to her is priceless
This is sheer bliss
To be in the arms of heaven
With every tender kiss.

Held to a loving breast
So soft and so sincere
I feel so loved
As I am laying here.

With every beat of her heart
My stress just floats away
For her calming gentle voice
Soothes me and makes me stay.

To kiss lips soft as satin
With a passion from deep inside
I have trouble containing
The love in me that resides.

To give her sheer delight
I love with great pleasure
For to be the one she chooses
Is sacred beyond measure.

Holding her is grand
Even when there are tears
For this makes me want her more
My love is more sincere.

For this time is more precious
Then any jewels or gold
For I feel so honored
To have her to hold.

My love is very deep
This I cannot deny
Even when I hold back
The tear that comes to my eye.

To hold her so tenderly
Loving her so much
I am proud to be a man
Being graced with her touch.

To bond with her sexuality
Loving her so deep
Is the greatest gift of all
The memory in my heart to keep.

Women are so beautiful
So special in every way
I am blessed to be a man
So I dedicate this prose today.

To all my women friends
Even the ones I hold so dear
Thank You for being in my life
From a humble heart sincere.


DP